avoidingnemo ([info]avoidingnemo) wrote,
@ 2008-07-07 13:44:00
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Entry tags:missing scene challenge, oc fic, the pieces don't fit

Missing Scene Challenge Season 4
Title: The Pieces don't Fit
Rating: PG
Characters: Cohens + 1
Word Count: 1,107
Disclaimer: I own nothing related to the OC.
Summary: I had the first epi of S4, The Avengers. So what better missing scene than the one of Ryan actually coming home to Cohen house?

As always thanks to [info]joey51 for the great beta job. Not to mention the fact that she was busy trying to pack for Cali. Thanks, hon. And also thanks to [info]ctoan for organizing such a fun challenge. And happy belated birthday!




“Okay, the sheets are changed,” Kirsten says as she walks into the den.

“You didn’t need to do that. Those sheets were clean, Kirsten,” Sandy responds from his position on the couch. He’s flipping through the channels on the TV, not paying attention to any of the shows flying past his eyes.

“Those sheets have been on that bed for months, Sandy. He needs fresh sheets.”

Sandy sighs. He’s not going to fight with Kirsten over sheets. He knows that she’s just trying to keep herself busy until Ryan comes home. Ever since he told her that Ryan had decided to move back home she hasn’t been able to sit still. She sits beside him for a moment or two and then she’s back up claiming the need to check on something. She’s nervous. He understands that.

“Okay, honey. But don’t go to any other trouble for him. You know how Ryan is. He’s not going to want you doing things for him. He’s not a guest. He knows where everything is, including the sheets.”

Kirsten looks away. “Why isn’t he here yet? He said he was coming right?”

“Relax. He’ll be here.”

“Yeah, like he came to dinner the other night.”

Sandy stops pretending to look for something on TV and puts the remote control down. “Kirsten….”

She holds her hand up to stop him from saying anything else.

“I know. I’m sorry. It’s just…I can’t stand thinking of him living in that place. It’s dirty and lonely and he doesn’t deserve that. Hasn’t he been through enough?”

She sits down beside him and leans her head on his shoulder. He hears her whisper, “He belongs here with us so we can help him. I just want him home, Sandy.”

Before he can respond, the front door opens and closes. Kirsten immediately sits up. Sandy grabs her hand. “Just stay here. Let him come to us. He doesn’t need us smothering him.”

“Mom? Dad?” Seth calls out.

Kirsten lays her head back down on Sandy’s shoulder.

“In here, son,” Sandy calls out.

Seth walks in the room and glances around. “So, Ryan didn’t come back?” he asks, sounding disappointed.

“He’s coming. He just had to pack up his things and give notice at the bar,” Sandy explains.

“And how long should that take, Sandy? He barely took any of the clothes we bought him. How much stuff can he have?” Kirsten wants to know.

“Maybe he changed his mind,” Seth offers.

Sandy takes a deep breath. “You’re not helping. Why are you home anyway? Shouldn’t you be out with Summer?”

“She told me to come home. She thought I should be here in case Ryan came home,” he explains.

“That’s very thoughtful of her. How’s she doing, anyway? This can’t be easy for her either,” Kirsten says.

“She’s Summer, Mom. She’s off doing the college thing.”

“What does that mean?” Sandy tries to keep the ball rolling. Talking about Summer would hopefully keep all three of them from watching the minutes tick by. Ryan really should be home by now and Sandy’s starting to get worried himself, but he can’t let Kirsten and Seth know that. He has to be strong for his family even if Ryan has changed his mind about moving back home. Especially if Ryan has changed his mind.

“I don’t know, Dad. She’s taking classes. She’s into recycling and…and I don’t think she showers everyday,” Seth answers, his voice trailing off into a fake whisper.

Sandy laughs. “Maybe she’s finding herself. You know, finding out what she likes and what matters to her.”

“Summer likes shoes.”

“She can have other interests, Seth. And even if this is her way of dealing, you just have to be there for her,” Kirsten offers.

“I’m trying, Mom.”

Kirsten smiles. “I know you are, sweetie.”

The front door opens and closes again. This time Sandy can’t stop Kirsten from getting up off the couch.

When Ryan walks into the den, Kirsten says softly, “You’re home.”

Sandy studies Ryan closely and the first thing he recognizes is that Ryan is extremely closed off. He’s standing there with his arms down by his sides like he’s trying to look casual, but his whole body is tense.

As if to confirm Sandy’s suspicions when Kirsten hugs Ryan, Sandy notices that Ryan pauses before he returns the gesture. Earlier in the evening, Sandy thought he saw a little bit of the old Ryan returning. However, he’s not sure what happened since he left Ryan at the bar, but this Ryan isn’t the one Sandy talked with earlier. This Ryan has cold, distant eyes. This is the Ryan that moved out of their house to begin with. It’s always one step forward, two steps back with this kid.

Sandy knows that Ryan has a long way to go before he can accept what has happened, but he had hoped that the clouds would stay parted for a little longer than a few hours at a time.

“Give him some room, Mom,” Seth says.

Kirsten laughs. “Sorry. It’s just really good to have you home.”

Ryan nods.

“So man, what do you say to running a few games?” Seth asks, sounding hopeful.

“Maybe tomorrow. I’m kind of beat.”

“Oh, okay then.”

“Goodnight, guys,” Ryan says.

After Ryan leaves the room, Seth comments, “Well that was…short.”

“Seth, it’s going to take Ryan some time. Just because he’s home doesn’t mean everything is back to normal. For Ryan, it will never be the same again,” Sandy explains.

Seth sighs. “I know, Dad. I’m just going to go…call Summer. See you in the morning.”

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As Kirsten and Sandy are getting ready for bed, Kirsten says, “You’re quiet.”

“I’m just worried about Ryan.”

Kirsten slips into bed and pulls the covers up to her chest before responding, “Me too, honey, but he’s home now. We’ll get him through this.”

Sandy follows Kirsten’s lead and gets in bed. He lies down on his side and pulls his wife close to him. He needs her close to him tonight. He needs to borrow some strength from her so that he can face the boy with the dead eyes that he welcomed into his home and heart years before.

“I hope so. You didn’t see him tonight. It was like we had made some progress with him and now he’s back to retreating inside himself.”

“Go to sleep, Sandy. It will be fine. We’ll put this family back together, starting with a big family breakfast tomorrow.”

“Crispy bacon does make the day a little brighter.”

Kirsten laughs and kisses him quickly on the lips. “I love you,” she whispers.




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[info]smc36
2008-07-07 06:23 pm UTC (link)
I love you, too.
I love hitting 'refresh' and finding a new fic pop up - I love it even more when I see the author of said fic!!

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 08:15 pm UTC (link)
I'm glad to help you out. :)

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[info]nightrider101
2008-07-07 06:46 pm UTC (link)
YAY! This does not fail! :D You've got a great grasp on these characters.

However, he’s not sure what happened since he left Ryan at the bar, but this Ryan isn’t the one Sandy talked with earlier. This Ryan has cold, distant eyes. This is the Ryan that moved out of their house to begin with. It’s always one step forward, two steps back with this kid.

Ouch. You wrote that perfectly. Ryan has been through so much, and there's not going to be any easy fixes to these problems.

After Ryan leaves the room, Seth comments, “Well that was…short.”

Is it bad that I laughed out loud when I read that line? Seth does have a way with words.

Thanks for sharing this! I enjoyed it!

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 08:17 pm UTC (link)
I'm glad you enjoyed it. I'm currently working on some of the fic that I wrote while in Cali. The muses fail! Grrr. Maybe I'll just go play on youtube. :)

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[info]nightrider101
2008-07-07 08:24 pm UTC (link)
I think our muses stayed in Cali...without us. Bastards. :P

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 11:07 pm UTC (link)
Shouldn't that be "internets"? :)

It doesn't help that my muses are still in Cali and I'm also a lazy ass. The later is probably the bigger problem!

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[info]60schic
2008-07-08 04:44 am UTC (link)
As in "I bought me the internets" ?

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[info]alluxera
2008-07-07 07:30 pm UTC (link)
I have read so many wonderful stories in the last few days and this is one of them. You all are awesome. I really like this. You've showed the Cohen's concern and anxiety very well.(and Seth is really not helping, LOL)THank you very much.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 08:19 pm UTC (link)
Thanks. I'm glad you liked it.

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[info]fredsmith518
2008-07-07 08:16 pm UTC (link)
However, he’s not sure what happened since he left Ryan at the bar, but this Ryan isn’t the one Sandy talked with earlier. This Ryan has cold, distant eyes. This is the Ryan that moved out of their house to begin with. shivers, yes, that sounds excatly right.

I really like what you've written here. Excellent missing scene filled.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 08:21 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, fred. I'm so glad you enjoyed it.

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[info]philippa_
2008-07-07 08:45 pm UTC (link)
That was great. I would have so loved to have seen that at the end of "the Avengers."

Thanks :)

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 11:04 pm UTC (link)
No, thank you! I'm glad you liked it.

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[info]jassylou
2008-07-07 08:55 pm UTC (link)
However, he’s not sure what happened since he left Ryan at the bar, but this Ryan isn’t the one Sandy talked with earlier. This Ryan has cold, distant eyes. This is the Ryan that moved out of their house to begin with. shivers, yes, that sounds excatly right.

I think this is thr Ryan with the "killer instinct". The Ryan that shouldn;t have taken that last cage match.Before going to meer Julie at Marissas grave. Julie did a really good job of embittering and confusing an already confused boy.

This is a powerful piece of writing doll. I wish those freakin muses would allows us somemore of this.Hugs!

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 11:04 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, jassy. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

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[info]ryanforever
2008-07-07 10:37 pm UTC (link)
Thank you nemo.
Eventually the pieces did fit but it was always going to take some time.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-07 11:05 pm UTC (link)
And it should take time. If it doesn't then the person who died didn't really mean all that much to you in the first place.

I'm glad you liked it.

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[info]60schic
2008-07-08 04:43 am UTC (link)
Sandy studies Ryan closely and the first thing he recognizes is that Ryan is extremely closed off. He’s standing there with his arms down by his sides like he’s trying to look casual, but his whole body is tense

Oh yes---nice pick up on what Ryan would be like. Everyone is *making* me go back to their eps to see what they saw...and this definitely is where Ryan would be right after "I just realized...I have to do this."

You also captured Kirsten perfectly. That she would be nervous/restless/impatient. Also worried sick. And Sandy - always so perceptive with Ryan (when he pays attention---damn S2 and 3)

Very nice. I love any scene that ends in the Cohen kitchen...or a bed!

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-13 08:27 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, chic. Ryan's change is what struck me the most so it is where I had to go with the fic. The Cohens are expecting him to be ready to come home and he's back to being angry. Good times!

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[info]beachtree
2008-07-09 08:51 am UTC (link)
Got to love Cohens+1 time in all of its incarnations, especially with such spot on characterization.

What I really like is how seamlessly and effectively you incorporate one of my favorite exchanges of the year- if not the series- but do so subtly, with a focus on Sandy's perceptions and reactions. By using Sandy as the vehicle to revisit the earlier scene between the two of them when Ryan capitulated, acquiesced, and seemed to stop fighting a losing battle by recognizing that his attempt to spare the Cohens was backfiring, since they apparently believed that Ryan wasn't tainted and they weren't better off without him, you draw upon all of those feelings that were cautiously revealed- both by direct and indirect means. If Ryan couldn't convince them, it wasn't for lack of trying, so he'd take the path of least resistance and placate them. Causing more hurt and turmoil wasn't his intent: to the contrary. Throughout, Sandy was trying to walk a very fine line and not upset a delicate balance, not spook Ryan, and tentatively forge a reconnection. You've found a very economical, but expressive and inclusive way of communicating all that Ben and Peter conveyed so movingly. I'm sure that a moment as crucial, powerful and emotional as that would have made its mark on Sandy as he vowed to not turn a blind eye this time or take the easy, convenient way out instead of facing who and what he needed to be for Ryan.

I love your portrayal of Sandy, because he seems to be the man we saw in that episode- and we'd only catch very rare, brief, whitewashed glimpses as the season progressed. Instead of following what I believe was the natural course and watching how Sandy and Ryan would reconnect to come full circle in a sense, we would get the T.T. shenanigans show. However, here you give us a realistic, concerned, committed Sandy who seems well aware of what Ryan faces- or at least doesn't shy away from what that might be- and acknowledges that a lifetime of wide-ranging, cumulative traumas have finally become too much for even Ryan to suppress, and this most recent one has triggered an unleashing of an onslaught. For someone with no self-worth, like Ryan, and for someone used to taking all blame and being burdened with fixing everything for everyone else, the survivor's guilt alone would be crushing. On top of everything else that has undermined him for far too long, it's shattering. Sandy's own guilt at never actively dealing with Ryan's emotional welfare or helping him to address or cope with any of what he suffered just during the last three years has become unavoidable. He might not admit it, but there's the admission that he's been an enabler at best, and negligent at worst. Rather than thinking about Ryan, he's been thinking about himself and his life.

The bottom line is that taking steps forward will require taking steps back to come to terms with all that has been swept under the rug so the Cohens could have an existence as they'd always been accustomed to unmarred by any disruption Ryan might have represented. The immediate adaptation or integration that they'd wanted from him has always hurt Ryan. Now someone is aware of that and more. If only we could have witnessed more of this Sandy and what he's about to pursue with Ryan in whatever manner and whatever pace Ryan is comfortable with. Simply having Ryan back on the premises shouldn't have meant a near instant solution. Occasionally "checking in" while briefly dancing around the more critical, but unpleasant and complex issues was only a slight improvement over the previous approach. There was so much to explore and to mend that went untouched. You give real hope that would have been the true agenda.



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[info]beachtree
2008-07-09 08:52 am UTC (link)
Kirsten's and Seth's responses are very much in keeping with what I would expect. Kirsten has always been one to move on rather than to pay attention to something unpleasant. It has been her pattern that she's repeated and reinforced from the outset. I've often wondered if her own initial reluctance towards Ryan that took far too long to begin to soften was one of the reasons Sandy didn't press for more for Ryan from the beginning. Even at Valentine's Day, when Ryan so desperately needed something to bridge the gap of mistrust and miscommunication after how horribly things were botched with Oliver Twisted, Sandy made the one attempt that was squelched by Kirsten. Perhaps Sandy didn't want to rock the boat further and was trying to minimize things so that Ryan wouldn't pay a higher price with her?

As for Seth, he simply isn't prepared to give up his idealized, romanticized (be clean!) images of Ryan that suit him best. He wants the quick fix and the return to the status quo that works out to his best advantage. Seth just wants all to be right in Seth's world. He'd rather not consider any alternative. Ryan has also been in a ready-made role and that's the only place for him as far as Seth can handle. I'm not sure he'll ever be ready for the reality of Ryan's life, only what he needs Ryan to contribute to his own.

I had meant for this to be a brief comment, but I guess we know how THAT worked out! Thanks for what is a very insightful, dimensional, resonating ending that serves as a wonderful connective between what preceeded and what should have come next during the course of the year.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-13 08:29 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, beachtree. I'm glad you thought this worked. I knew what I wanted to do as soon as I was given the epi, but you never know if what you see in your head comes across until you put it out there. Always kind of scary!

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[info]bicky40
2008-07-09 01:25 pm UTC (link)
That was great.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-13 08:29 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, bicky.

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[info]mel39
2008-07-09 09:18 pm UTC (link)
Sigh. You and I had the same issues, didn't we, having the first two epis? It couldn't be a happy ending! I think you did this very well - it fits perfectly with the following morning, how Ryan is at home physically but still *not* there, and all is not well. Your end, with the light touch of Sandy's joke works so well, and is completely the sort of thing Sandy would say to lift the mood, and yet he and Kirsten know that everything is not OK in the Cohen household. Great job.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-13 08:31 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, mel. I couldn't have a happy ending so I had to put the joking in there. Something so that it wasn't all depressing. Yes, all is definitely not okay in the Cohen house. Sigh.

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[info]helen_c
2008-07-10 06:43 pm UTC (link)
Awesome! I loved it; of course, getting Ryan home is only half the battle and things will take some more time before they actually get better...

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-13 08:32 pm UTC (link)
Thanks, helen. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

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[info]anne35
2008-07-12 06:20 am UTC (link)
This was fantastic. I always hoped that someone would write a scene showing Ryan's return to the house. This was everything I could have hoped for.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-13 08:33 pm UTC (link)
Aww, that's awesome. I'm glad I could give you want you wanted. Thanks, anne.

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[info]loracj
2008-07-15 09:03 pm UTC (link)
He's home. Where he belongs. This fills a void, for sure.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-17 07:02 pm UTC (link)
Thanks. I'm glad you liked it. I'm behind on all my challenge reading. Sigh.

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[info]fifimom
2008-07-16 06:10 am UTC (link)
Very nicely done, thanks for writing.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-17 07:02 pm UTC (link)
Thank you for reading. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

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[info]kazfloyd
2008-07-16 11:34 am UTC (link)
This was great. I wish we would have seen this in canon.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-17 07:02 pm UTC (link)
Thanks.

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[info]m4rk6
2008-07-17 12:43 pm UTC (link)
I love stories like these, thanks for sharing.

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[info]avoidingnemo
2008-07-17 07:03 pm UTC (link)
Thanks.

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